Before you condemn me to hell, God, I have a few requests.
I know you, God, are love, and that your decision is just, so I will accept it.
Please destroy any and all memory I have of this place, it has proven to win me over many times and I no longer want to remember it. In fact, utterly destroy me, from my own and others’ memories. I believe that you do not torture people forever, so make my destruction final, swift, and painless.
Next, if I have ever done or recorded any good here, please allow that to be credited to others for their salvation if it’s needed. My feeble good deeds should not go unused.
If this decision comes as a final, and I have no chance to learn from you or others, how your perfect will should be carried out, then please remove my memory from the ones that I have known, so that no infection of sin will be left on them.
I believe that you are holy, perfect, and just, and I rely on your love to comfort and sustain me, in this life and your decision. I still love you and am sorry I have failed you. Please forgive me.